Dark Side Of Me

I’ve fall to the My Dark Side…

On my desk now are many kinds of assignments wait to be finishes, however at the late in this week I’m being lazy to do it, sometimes I think I need a fresh air to bail out from this situations, I need breath once more, I want to free for a while…

Guess what, even I try to ignore this kind’s stuff that make me crazy, I still can’t stop the spinning of the time, they still move on, even when I fall, even when I’ve wounded, they keep moving forward, left me behind. Hard to beat the time, isn’t it?

I know to finish my assignment is my job, isn’t it?

I know that is my choice to lead my way forward by my self, isn’t it?

But Why I feel so anger by now?

Lots of sound are rounding on my head, to keep finish that assignments before I running out of time, time is really mean, isn’t it? They can’t wait you at the corner of the road, they will keep run, leaving u wasted at the half way, they can’t wait until u make your move or take a breath once more, they leaving you…

It’s happening to me right now, I’ve failed to beat my own time, can’t control it, can’t make it usefully, can’t stop it…

I’ve wasting my time, I’ve lost on my own timeline, confuse how to make it to be a better, I’ve lose…

As I write this post, I’ve can’t found my spirits that is missing at this awful week, I’ve not founded that chemistry of my time that I’ve missed all over the week. I’ve stay too long in the wrong side of me again, can’t get up, can’t start new session, can’t rebuild pieces by pieces of my energy that I waste to something that useless, I can’t repay it. I’ve fall at the same hole again my friends…

This May is my turning point, I would try to keep my self on balance by now, when I was thinking about my self all of this week, I’ve deep down try to found my self again, try to understanding my minds, search the missing me, question on my head, what is wrong on me this time, why I can’t think clear, is that right I’ve lost on searching my identity…?

I believe myself not a lazy person, but why act like I’m is the ones.

I believe myself isn’t a bad impressions, but lately I thinking like ones.

I believe I can’t control myself, but why I can’t control it right now.

What is happen to me…?

I want to recovery my minds by now, so I’m sorry my if post this time is too short, once again, I just want to tell to u all the real me, I’m just a human that can have unbalance, can’t control myself, freak out with condition of my life, sadness, anger, happiness, bad impressions, and more stuff that every human ever made, I’m just human…

The sort way to tell u what’s happening to me right now is, I’ve trapped on my dark side …